121 Days of Sunshine  

Posted by feihaley in

To the boy with green and brown eyes:

I could write you a hundred letters telling you how much I love you, how you make me laugh every time, how you hold my hand tight, how you kiss my forehead with such assurance that everything will be alright. But sometimes I have this feeling that even though the world has made a thousand words for me to tell you all these, it will never be enough. Its like how one appreciates a very beautiful sunset that leaves them speechless. They just know for themselves that its beyond words. Beyond human understanding. You might be a little jackass sometimes, but I still love the way you tell me how beautiful I am and how much you love me. You never failed to tell me that. All the time. And no man in my past relationships has ever done that before. That makes you a first. So how can I stay mad at you at times when you're being a jerk? I guess I just can't, not for long.

121 days. Way back when. I feel like it has been ages ago. A lot has happened, really. Everything, a treasure that will always remain in my memory. But now, I feel a little torn. Like my heart is starting to break into pieces. I'm doing my best to fight it, but I just can't because I know I'm dreading something. Not because you did something wrong, but because I know that the days of your stay here is starting to run out. Like an hour glass. Each little piece of grain that I can't stop from falling down. You know I'm happy, but at the same time now I feel sad. And heartbroken. But I want to be strong for us. I want this one to work out, so I made a vow to myself that I will do my very best. I hope its the same for you. There are not a lot of good things and relationships like ours, so I want this thing to last.

I want you to know that I really appreciate how you took care of me for the past 4 months, how you make the days happier. I could never thank you enough, I guess. Maybe I've told you a thousand times that I love you very much. But I want to tell you this again. You are one of the greatest thing that ever happened to me. You really are a Schatz that I hope I can keep for a long time. And.. I love you to the moon and back. =)

I know we can do this. Let's hope for the best. Everything will be alright, in the end.

Of Good and Evil.  

Posted by feihaley in

Ich vermisse dich, meine virtuelle feder.

Hello again. Let me start this by saying I've been busy travelling back and forth from Heaven and Hell and back here again on Earth where asses and bitches can be found. Most likely. So what has life been like since I last laid eyes and lips on you? I say, a lot, man. A LOT.

I checked my last post and I can't believe that it has only been 5 months (or should I say it has ALREADY BEEN 5 months) since I wrote something good, at least. I guess the world just keeps on spinning and living a life of its own, not giving a single piece of shit whether I've actually gotten over our dead dogs (May they rest in peace. We miss you a lot) or if I have actually had my liver checked, if I still have one. Haha. But hey, I'm trying my BEST to stay sober. Goodluck with that. :)) Life here has been great and worse. Literally. Great, being that Love found me (Hell yeah. :D) and Worse, being that the Authorities are living up to their name as Big Fucking Bitch, kicking and grilling everyone's asses. Well, not literally because that would be disgusting.


Ah. What could be more relaxing and consoling than having a German love. Who would have thought that I'd find one? Fate? Call it whatever you want, but I actually don't want to label it because I think labels are fit for fantasies and fairy tales. And I like neither of the two. Correct me if I'm wrong, my dear friends. So let me tell you some things about him. Well, he's just great. He's funny. He can speak English well, for a German. Except for the fact that he always pronounces "W" as "V" i.e, instead of saying "Salwa road", he says "Salva road" Haha. He likes to drink A LOT (but no, he's not a drunkard). He smokes. He likes to skate. He's not so much into computers and internet. He is a country boy. He listens to German punk and heavy metal. He has green and brown eyes, shoulder-length wavy hair that he can now tie into a pony tail. Basically, I have a rock 'n roll Schatzi. And we are very much happy. :)

But tales will not be complete without Dungeons and Dragons.
But Imma SLAY THEM. Haha
So,fuck them Authorities.

I say they have just gotten the worst so far. Tons of intrigues, violations, and all those goddamn lies. But I still have something human on me, so I will not explain further what the above mentioned are. I can't actually believe that I am surviving this kind of situation. You can only imagine, but yeah I guess I've done well at this point in time. I show them a face and work quality that they want to see, they don't meddle with my private life. The goody-two shoes. Damn right. They say if you want to do something bad, you better do it the RIGHT way. Hell yes. Haha.

Anyway, I'm not sure if this one is good enough for an update. I hope so? :)) If not.. Nah. Nevermind. I don't care. So, bis nachher!


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